"Cogito Ergo Sum"- A Philosophical Quest

  The Pointless struggle! There are days when life just gets denser and denser—like an endless philosophical soup—and I don’t know what I’m doing. Totally aimless, totally meaningless. Modern philosophy keeps circling around the same question: what is the point of being human? Descartes, Spinoza, Leibniz—all of them trying their best to turn God into something finite and infinite at the same time, handing out attributes to nature like confetti at a wedding. And here I am today: empty, non-existent, trying to find purpose in this philosophical circus. Every day, we all try to survive, to give meaning to our existence, to choose between good and evil like contestants on a cosmic reality show. We have the freedom to choose, but then we also question the freedom of God. In this quest for philosophy, I often feel trapped and caged, asking myself: Was I meant for this? What is my purpose? The more I wrestle with philosophers about existence, essence, modes of thought, and the extension ...

  Pedro Arrupe, Medieval Philosophers and My Wandering Mind Why Pedro Arrupe Suddenly Appears in My Head Everyone’s probably wondering: “Why is Pedro Arrupe suddenly here?” Trust me, I’m also wondering. But here’s why: Pedro Arrupe gives a philosophy no one else has given. Not some abstract, ivory-tower philosophy but something practical , deeply lived. I honestly don’t know how to explain it all on philosophical grounds — it’s just there : God’s existence, ethics, epistemology, and an ethic of action that seizes my mind. These days, though, I’m struggling. My consistency is a mess. My mind wanders. I want to do so many things but can’t hold the line. Emotions take over, cover my mind, drag me away. I think that’s just being human. Still, I’ve started the race again. No matter how many times I fall, I’ll get up and walk — or run. Disappointments? Many. But one day will come, and it will change everything. I’m working for that day. Through all this, I remain a human being sea...

  A Conference on Academic Study of Christianity in Secular Space: Relevance and Challenges for Contemporary Times Madras University, Chennai — My Tired, Half-Sick, Half-Sarcastic Reflection I came here tired. Honestly, too tired. The first thought in my head: Is this even worth it? Yes, the place was good — Madras University, after all, has its own aura, that colonial-bureaucratic-fascinating look. But the purpose? That changed the whole mood. Dr. James Punaya, the head of the stream in the university, presided. And then the surprise of the day: for the first time in my life, I saw a woman bishop, live, in cassock. She arrived with Bishop Paul of the CSI Diocese of Madras. For a second, my sickness vanished, because — well, novelty excites. Many bishops from many denominations were present, but I had only one regret: I had skipped my Thomas Aquinas class for this. And looking back, Aquinas might have been the better choice. And as always with these academic programs — the sam...

The Village Visits.............Experience which will stay...... Arkali – The Jesuit Centre, Paramankheni, Chennai. Here we met Fr. Philip SJ, the director of the place. There we were sent to interact with the fisher folks and the people fighting for their rights in STs and SCs. Though we did not know Tamil, still we were able to understand them, as the language of love surpasses every boundary. He gave us a talk — his main point: “Don’t remove them from their place. Find balance.” Sounds wise enough, though I wondered if “balance” could be sold in the market. We interacted with people from four houses. At 4:45 pm, the houses looked deserted. Why? Because the men were sleeping. They wake at 3:00 am, go fishing, and return only at 7:30 am. A rhythm of life completely alien to us. Fishing is life. Government funds help in death, not in work. Transition from fishing to IT is a fantasy. Women aren’t allowed into the sea (for their “safety,” of course), but they are changing their strea...