The struggle to prove God or Self..?

"Mighty Ocean playing with the Pure Innocence"- Anonymous... On Augustine, Purusha, and My Headache I really do not understand what is happening in my life. Maybe you also don’t. Maybe each of us is secretly thinking the same way as I am — confused, restless, anxious — but pretending to be fine. In this grand intellectual quest, I may have forgotten to take care of my “heart.” I know, I know, the heart cannot think — it’s just an organ pumping blood. But let me keep it poetic, because today, my side of the debate will not be defeated — I am speaking emotionally. Life keeps evolving, struggles keep piling up. I know what I should do, and what I shouldn’t do — and yet here I am, troubled. Troubled by Augustine, Jainism, Zoroastrianism, tribals, Purusha and Prakriti — and on top of it all, the most important trouble: I cannot give meaning to my life. Most of us escape the truth by keeping busy. Maybe I’m escaping too. Some philosophers say life is not dualistic, but I disagre...